mid-summer

it's 3 in the morning. the clock posted up is wrong; so what i'm saying is is that i'm a night owl.

new relationships are so fun and fresh, i'm scared of it going to end. he told me that life is a pie chart. there are about 4 small sections and one huge section. that big part of the pie chart is marriage, family, and the most stressful part of your life. it's not neccessarily a bad thing, but why rush into it if you're going to end up there anyways. being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up. these are the best days of our lives.

i feel like i need constant advice for this time in my life and i find i get the best from the one closest to me, debra. she says, "it's your life and no one elses, so live it." in a way, it's like take other people's advice at face value because in the end it affects you and no one else.

at the same time i feel like i got a good catch and i just want to reel him in. i realize this whole time i've been rushing into that big part of that pie chart and for now i just want to slow it down.

4th is this weekend. plans for tomorrow: transformers with dennis, cao nguyen, maybe see a drive in. saturday: sleep, study, drink and blow up stuff. sunday: work, BBQ, aunt spending night; back to square one.