like my shitty LG phone...life's good!

i realized that i haven't blogged in a while when friends tell me that they've been bored. Thank you to all those that rave over my rantings. :P of course, since i haven't been blogging i've got a lot on the cranium.

i'm going to start things off about the time where i left off of. i came to accept that i suck at organic chemistry and i prefer you don't remind me about how much i suck because i'd rather leave that forgotten. summer = new start for dianna. there. only a select few of my friends know that i'm retaking it. feel special if you know but i have a reputation to uphold; dont spread it like wildfire. so please refrain if you must. don't pity me, just leave me and chemistry alone.

these past two weeks have been amazing. working only weekends and sleeping in; hanging out with friends and bike riding! chris, if you read this, i'm going to miss you and the crew and i will def come to san antonio for your birfday.

i cannot wait to move into my new place. i've been buying so much stuff for it and i am ready to paint walls and decorate. i have about 6 paper lanters (5 white and 1 orange) that will go for the orange and white themed room (and no, it's not because we hate the sooners) i also have a wall mural of the world that i got from urban outfitters. my sister started on some pictures of koi. we went to the library yesterday and borrowed all the koi books. i'll post pictures up when i have my camera on me. i'll post pictures of my whole frikkin apartment!

speaking of spending, i've been doing this nonstop for the past week, and i have learned my lesson. first and hopefully last time i'm going into the hole. i havent been keeping an eye out on my account because i assumed that my paycheck would take care of my funds. well.....yea, you can guess how that turned out. about $350 dollars in overdraft fees. FUCK MY LIFE! yep, just found out last night. pretty much ate half of my fucking paycheck. my excuse....i don't really have any. can't blame anyone but me. actually, i do have one excuse: why didn't i set up overdraft protection earlier. my goal as of now is not to spend any money until my next paycheck which is in 11 days. that's 11 days of not spending money. we'll see how well that goes. mooching off friends and sleeping around. jk. only if money grew on trees. i did go to the bank and the banker who was helping me is trying to see if i could get reembursed since this is the first time this has happened to me. *cross fingers*

my roommates have been sending me some "bitching texts." i mean, they don't do it frequently or anything it just sounds like they blame me for everything. first off, for those who dont already know. the angry beer text from cynthia, the angry taboo text from cynthia as well, and now a mile to moderately angry "bowls" text from My....is this a trend i see here?? and for one thing, why are we sending texts in the first place?! you can't read tone in text and who knows if they're really angry or just want to be fucking immature about it. just whatever. i am so happy to be moving out. oh yes, and to matt, my future roommate. the only thing i regret about moving in with you is that i have the potential to hate you. and i dont want to hate you because you are one of my coolest and closest friends. i'm sure we'll get annoyed with each other but....i don't even want that. hopefully we'll stay out of each others business but in each others business. lol. you're my bra.

right when school let out i chatted with gabe for a few hours. i know i shouldn't even be talking to him because he's stringing me along; giving me a false sense of hope that we could get back together. what a cruel joke to play. i truly feel that he's only doing this to reassure that he has someone to fall back on. he says that he misses me and my heart slowly melts to each tantaizing line. he says he's in a relationship but wants to end it and asks me for advice. what do you want me to say??? that is such a stupid question. i'm listening to yanni as i write this. this is what we listened to while we studied for summer classes.

i dont know what to expect this summer. like all summers, they come and go. i want to make the most. i want to make good grades but i want to live too. floating trips, swimming, sun dresses, and summer boys!!!! boy crazy as i am. summer classes is a chance to redeem myself

well debra is telling me a synopsis of 'drag me to hell' so until next time

when i'm supposed to be through with you

ok so i said no more fucking around i lied. travis told me for every 40 minutes of studying you deserve a 20 minute break lol :P. so i facebook chatted with gary a few hours ago. i asked how finals were and all he said was 'i have one at 8.' why is he being so cold to me now. it's like i never knew him and it hurts like crap. i shouldn't even be thinking of this cus i should be focusing on microbio. after that, i didn't respond. i wasn't going to push it. this blows major nuts.

fufufufufinals!

i have approx 1 1/2 hours til my geog test. bahahaha. so travis took me home last night. all right! but there's something about him i'm still unsure of. he invited me to a bunch of events but i was hoping he'd be a recluse like me....or gabe. he's already 21 and it makes it hard to have fun together; that is, if we got together. going out anyways. sometimes i wish i didnt like anybody. givin a shout out to v-train. what what! ok, i'm done fucking around. back to studying.

already fallen overboard

the two "s" words that i swear are annoying as fuck...i will use them now. i am so stressed from studying. i have so much going on (when do i not?) and on top of that, the possibility of retaking a class and summer school. gosh i'm so tired.

anxiety level of 106!

just got off my 8 hour shift. well not just but i feel like my whole day was wasted away. but oh, it does not end.

despite my depression (it's not real) i look forward to the summer with my homies and living with one homie.

some people need to quit being so goddamn selfish.

hmm. i thought i had more to say but i guess that's it

le sigh

big relief. just finished my first final which i dont think turned out too bad. i shouldn't say that, look what happened to the last test :P. i'm a bit depressed though. i made a 78 on my persuassive speech. wtf? i had a powerpoing and everything. this one girl read off her paper and got an 84?? i'm going to contest this. it must be wrong. either that or i have a superiority complex. ughhhh. i hate work. tomorrow for 8 hours, thurs for 6, friday for 8. and saturday i get off. i want to cry, just have a good break down. too bad i'm in the union and i'd look like a nerd lol. i just wish i had someones shoulder to cry on, i.e. gabe. yes my friends are good to me but i feel like somethings missing. i want someone to cheer me up at a time like this.

when there isn't much you can do

so i havn't blogged in a while because of how busy i am. school, work. boys-ish. i try my best not to care. my grades are sliding big time. college happened and i had to lower my standards. it's impossible to get organic chemistry; either that or i suck at taking tests. i like to think it's the latter. a boy i really like is super super smart. i dont know what i'm going to tell him. do guys find "C" girls attractive? i have two of my hardest classes with him this semester and it's going to suck if he watches me fail. it's almost scary because he's like a sterling. naturally smart and spoiled. fml. my dad wanted to come over today to cheer me up and bring me dinner but i passed and said that i was going to be in the library. really i'm just having my cousin over so i can mope. my dad is really cool. he just told me not to give up. i don't know if i should blame this on work. i have worked more than i ever have this semester. if i hadn't would things be the same? i've studied all i could and i am ready for the semester to be over. i have a summer class with the same guy and maybe we can go to the library and study together and he'll help me through the summer. who knows, just wishful thinking. my bathing suit came in. it is hot stuff but....i'm too depressed to do anything. i just wish i can sleep the next two weeks away and not have to worry about anything. just stressed and depressed; and now off to work.