when there isn't much you can do

so i havn't blogged in a while because of how busy i am. school, work. boys-ish. i try my best not to care. my grades are sliding big time. college happened and i had to lower my standards. it's impossible to get organic chemistry; either that or i suck at taking tests. i like to think it's the latter. a boy i really like is super super smart. i dont know what i'm going to tell him. do guys find "C" girls attractive? i have two of my hardest classes with him this semester and it's going to suck if he watches me fail. it's almost scary because he's like a sterling. naturally smart and spoiled. fml. my dad wanted to come over today to cheer me up and bring me dinner but i passed and said that i was going to be in the library. really i'm just having my cousin over so i can mope. my dad is really cool. he just told me not to give up. i don't know if i should blame this on work. i have worked more than i ever have this semester. if i hadn't would things be the same? i've studied all i could and i am ready for the semester to be over. i have a summer class with the same guy and maybe we can go to the library and study together and he'll help me through the summer. who knows, just wishful thinking. my bathing suit came in. it is hot stuff but....i'm too depressed to do anything. i just wish i can sleep the next two weeks away and not have to worry about anything. just stressed and depressed; and now off to work.